Looking Back, but Moving Forward
When I look back
I feel vulnerable all
over again.
I feel the pain,
my organs inflicting
pain on each other –
Fighting demons on the
inside, “I listen to you screaming at me.”
Being locked up,
chained to the floor,
and him yelling at me.
“If you’d just do everything I asked,
I wouldn’t have to….
Hurt you.
I was left broken and blue,
with anxiety and
PTSD too.
I was a child,
for God’s sake!
The night you crawled
up into my bed and said,
“You will no longer be innocent,
for it is mine to take before you wake.”
You drugged my mind
with an illusion of hell -
I fought the demons in my
mind, from your narcissism.
Looking back,
I would have been better off…
being homeless to Harvard.
Looking back to see how the
past shaped me –
I finally mustered up the courage
to move forward, to free myself
from the chains that bound me.
I thanked God, for helping me.
Very moving. I hope I can hear you reading this beautiful poem
ReplyDeleteThat is really deep and I can tell it came from the heart.
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